Sometimes I wonder if you really care,
Sometimes I wonder how much I matter,
Sometimes I lie awake, worrying you want someone else.
I often lie awake, wondering, afraid of losing you.
I sometimes look at you and wonder if you also
Think of me; if I am constantly on your mind, too.
Sometimes I wonder if you’re afraid of losing me,
Or if you would just continue on with your life
As if I was never a part of your life– would you miss me?
I know you love me and I do not doubt your loyalty.
But my insecurities sometimes whisper to me, taunting,
And filling me with anxiety, stress, and jealousy.
Sometimes I watch you when you’re not looking
And I fall– deeply, hard– all over again.
But sometimes I wonder if I’m more into you
Than you have actual interest for me.
When it comes to crushes, I usually fall the hardest.
I am sadly use to unrequited mini-crushes,
So when I have full-blown love for someone (you),
And you actually reciprocate, I’m not sure how to respond.
I wouldn’t trade you or your love for anything,
But sometimes I wonder how you’d feel without me.
Would my being gone affect you in any way
Or would you simply be quick to move on?
I know you return my love, but sometimes…
Sometimes I wonder.
Am I good enough?
Am I worthy?
Do I deserve it?
Do I deserve you?
You say I do,
But sometimes I wonder.